Friday, October 23, 2009 at 7:20 PM
I'm loving this picture/poster for a write-a-thon I [will] attend in spirit. Good times!!

So, yeah. the night before last, I participated (or so I thought) in a write-a-thon that took (will take) place in like San Francisco, or somewhere nowhere near where I live. But it's a 5-6 hr sit-down writing session with a ton of people and you just churn out what ya can. No editing...just words.
I didn't mean to, but I wrote 2.5k of my NaNo project. I was planning on just figuring out the character a bit more, but she started talking, so I had to write. This book is first person present tense, so when she starts, I have to tag right along with her or I'll miss out.
I love the book. I love the MC. I'm wishing it was Nov 1st already because I don't want to cheat. I'm not sure if there is anything better than writing....

*I've edited this since I realized how, um, slow I am LOL
I get to enjoy this night twice. Once on Oct. 22nd and again on the real night. So yay for that!!

sometimes, it's a struggle.

Saturday, October 17, 2009 at 2:40 PM
i'm the first to admit that i'm damned lucky to be getting paid to write. yeah, i'm not selling my novels or stories or anything, but my words are out there (and i'm obsessed with putting words together in a particular way, as i'm sure most writers are..) and people are reading them whether they know i wrote them or not -- and i'm getting money for it. what could be better?
not much...

thing is, i'm kind of stuck creatively now that i'm writing things that have more to do with research. don't get me wrong, i love it all, but i just feel i *may* have hit a brick wall. i haven't written a word of my novel in forever. yeah, i write every day, and i write A Lot every day, but it's getting alexis no further along in her adventure.
honestly, i think a lot of it has to do with her. she's not ready to move on quite yet... she's still dealing with this whole life-changing thing and so she's stalling. she's a bit like me that way, i suppose. yeah, that may sound crazy, but other writers know that the characters dictate what happens...we're just the vessel/vehicle/whathaveyou....
so, while alexis is stuck trying to come to terms with what's going on and what to do next, i find myself at the same place. one, i know what's going to happen to her and how everything will turn out. so it's rather annoying not to be able to just finish it already. but i do have patience.
the other thing is that i Swear alexis and i are at the same point in our lives. something Major is going on and we need to move forward and make some huge changes and be strong women and forge ahead without doubt.....but, it's not that simple.

yeah, people may be sick of my tarot card draws, but they're the one thing that hasn't failed me yet. not once..

here's mine for now, and i feel that it's more than correct, and once you see my 'future' card, you'll see why i'm so reluctant to move forward.
i'm hoping alexis has better luck. i think her path will be a bit easier than mine.
heck, i'm just hoping that this whole mess of a life (which is still on track, it's just a mess to get it to what i want exactly...) will bring alexis back closer to me and we can continue on her journey together as i trudge ahead on my own, by myself.

anyway, here's my draw for the day. i had nothing specific in mind as far as a question...just an overview of life and what's in store for me::

recent past::
* ten of swords
oh yeah, i've felt these swords lately. and i've been drawing them Constantly. if i go back over all my draws the past couple weeks, i'm betting all the money i have that at least 75% of them are sword cards.
here's the description of what the drawing means, paraphrased::
-- it's a card of terrible misfortune, but the troubles are more melodramatic than real. the sincere suffering that the man on the card is feeling *might* be exaggerated due to the fact that there are TEN swords...somewhat excessive. but that doesn't change how he feels... he's hitting rock bottom--one disaster after another. it's gotta end sometime, right?!? this card is about a victim mentality; being a martyr. a little dramatic. but there are misfortunes in the world and this card doesn't make light of what is happening. it's just perception that's key.
a person knows when there's really a problem and that problem should be dealt with accordingly.. but that's not what this card is about. it's to show you there IS a lighter side...your heart can laugh. the card is laughing at how you're dealing with your own personal tale of woe... "When you see the Ten of Swords, check your attitude and know you've reached the point where things will definitely begin to look up."
---------so, that was my past. to a T, for sure. what i posted the other day is my current situation, which this next card vibes with rather well. and it's great and it's perfect and it's true.

and here it is...
current situation::
*king of pentacles
-- this card is all about great stuff. this man is a jack-of-all-trades and is capable of Much. so when this card is drawn, it's supposed to mean that you should act as he would. wwjd (what would jack do -- lol)?? keep a commitment, fix something that's broken -- when you give more, you truly do receive more. so go out and appreciate what you have and give and take and be happy about it all. things are good!! "In a reading, he tells you that his special energy has meaning for you at this time. Let yourself be inspired by this King in whatever form he appears in your life."
-------i rather like this reading!!! and not just because it's positive...because it really does match up with my life at the moment. things are good. not perfect, but good. and i know what i have to do to keep it as such.
but...... i also know what's in store. which is why the next card isn't so wonderful.. but thankfully, life is mind over matter, so i can make things better. of course i can! ;)

future influences::
*nine of swords
-- gah...here's a dreaded sword card again. thankfully, it's reversed this time!! maybe people believe that if a card is reversed, it means all sorts of bad things. like, basically, you take what's good about the card and make it bad. or make what's inherently bad about the card even worse. not so..
all it means is that the energy of the card is lessened...for some reason, the energy cannot express itself freely, and this could be for a number of different reasons, ranging from it being only present in appearance but not deep down, or it may be in its early stages blahblahblah.
so i'm kind of glad this card was reversed for me today. i'm taking it to mean that all the bad things the card represents aren't going to be quite so bad, and with the awareness i already have of it, i can take some matters into my own hands and make the situation better.
but, the nine of swords isn't pleasant... it's all about guilt, anguish, and worry.
the figure in the card is in bed at night because that's when our griefs and worries usually bother us the most. that's when they're foremost in our minds. when we have downtime to really think about what's going on. the good thing about the nine of swords (say, vs. the three of swords) is that the pain comes from within. so, as i've said a few times, it's controllable. it's something we've done to ourselves. something we can change or lessen bit.
when we've done something wrong or failed someone, we tend to feel even worse about it, though, b/c we Can blame ourselves. the anguish is real. it's not a fun time...
but, although the nine of swords isn't the most pleasant of cards, "it doesn't always indicate major distress. Often it is just a sign of some element of unhappiness or trouble - a vulnerable spot in your life. This card is often a warning from your Inner Guide that the path you are going down may be a difficult one. If you approach the Nine of Swords in this spirit - as a caution sign - you will be able to use it constructively. Examine your situation carefully to be sure you are making the best choices. Even a small change can make all the difference."

So......I guess I'm off to figure out exactly what to do about all of this. The thing is, I know exactly what my problem coming up is going to be. Maybe if I can make it less painful before it happens, I can get over it more quickly and head toward happiness.
All I know is I'm proud to be writing and I love what I do for a living and I am sososo glad that I am becoming the type of person who my little girl can look up to and respect.
even if i do go a little crazy about the tarot cards lol
but seriously, they haven't Ever been wrong....so what does that say? hrm.... yeah..

all right, i'm off to take a nap and then play around with my new writing software. we'll see what it's all about and how it works. it's called My Story Writer and i blogged about it earlier on edentylerwriter.com, which you can easily get to by clicking on the big, black, edentylerwriter button on the right-hand side. we'll see.

whew, glad i got that all out of my system. Now, i can relax!!!

Nine of Pentacles -- I'm Finally in Control of my life and career!

Sunday, October 11, 2009 at 1:53 PM
The woman on the Nine of Pentacles is taking a leisurely stroll through the gardens of her estate. She is clearly a lady of refinement and grace, so it is incongruous to see on her left hand a bird trained to hunt and kill on command. Falconry is an unusual hobby for a gentlewoman, but it is the key to the special nature of this card.

On one hand, the Nine of Pentacles represents all that is most gracious, high-minded and civilized. Art, music and other forms of beauty are very much part of our physical world (Pentacles). Coins are present in this scene, but they are toward the ground. The business of life is important, but we don't have to focus on practical matters all the time. We can also enjoy the finer things of life. In readings, the Nine of Pentacles can imply an interest in these areas. It is also a sign that you may need to reject the coarse or offensive and seek the highest.

The Nine of Pentacles can also be a sign of discipline and self-control. This woman enjoys her cultured life because she has mastered her baser instincts. Her impulses work for her because they do not rule her. The falcon symbolizes all that is dark and unruly in human nature. Our shadow side can serve us well, but only when it is directed. Sometimes the Nine of Pentacles suggests that you must show restraint and self-control if you are to achieve your best efforts. You may have to "sacrifice" for the moment, but the results will be worth it.

This card is also a sign of self-reliance. Sometimes you must trust our own ability to handle a situation. Resist the temptation to let others do for you. You need to take matters into your own hands. Our elegant lady has done just that. She trusted in her own grit and determination, and now she enjoys all the best life has to offer.

Fuel Your Writing

Wednesday, October 7, 2009 at 4:20 PM

Just a quick re-post of something I put on Facebook earlier::


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horoscope time..

Monday, September 21, 2009 at 2:15 PM
I haven't been writing since I've been busy packing (or at least attempting to while life gets in the way...)
But, I have been up on my horoscope and other such things, though.
I got a really cool card draw the other day and I've learned my birth chart based on time and place of birth. I've checked all kinds of things -- Chinese Zodiac, the moon affecting our moods, Celtic Zodiac, and then my regular one, which is Taurus.

Which, according to this quiz, I definitely am!

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~~~ You're full of bull.

Organized... Hard-working... Comforting... Patient... Easygoing... Does this sound like you? Based on your answers, you are close to the mold of a Taurus. Although you sometimes go off the beaten path, for the most part, you possess many of the true traits of a Taurus. Tauruses are a certain type of person -- practical, conservative, dependable, honest, hard-working and harmonious. They rarely anger, but when they do, watch out; it's explosive. And don't try and keep them closed in -- Tauruses love the outdoors and nature. They love the good things in life, especially those that are pleasing to the eye. They're prone to overdoing it when it comes to food and alcohol. Famous Tauruses include Jessica Alba, Cher, Carmen Electra, Jerry Seinfeld, Jack Nicholson and Uma Thurman.

How you scored against others

2.97% 'You give Taurus a bad name.'
75.13% 'You're full of bull.'
21.91% 'You're a true Taurus' ~~~

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I've learned what my year will be like because I'm a goat/sheep::

This may not be the favorable year you desire. Coming off the year of the Rat, you may be seeking relief from a difficult year. Don't let up now. The Sheep is artistic in nature, but you may have difficulties finding a way to express your creative passions.

It will take an extra effort to rely on the help of others to make it through these times, but if you keep a steady focus on your goals and display painstaking efforts, you will be pleased to see the fruits of your labor arrive in 2010. Don't fret. You may learn a lot about yourself in the process. You are more versatile, as well as resourceful, than you ever imagined.

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And this is what the rest of September has in store for me::

Your strengths now: your calm and steady nature in a crisis; your instinct for what's enduring; your strong constitution.
Your vulnerabilities now: your tendency to resist change; stubborn thinking.

Mercury is in retrograde in Libra, and this shows you new approaches, especially with projects that are based on the principles of harmony. Mercury aligns with Saturn on the 22nd, so your thinking is concise allowing you to integrate new styles. But there's a constant tension to bust out of tried and true forms, with Uranus in opposition. You can feel liberated to follow the free reign of the imagination.

But the Virgo emphasis keeps bringing you back to the power of artful order. Bottom line: you are ready to go beyond your own creative boundaries, while staying grounded in good habits of discipline. It's the best of both worlds, and you're uniquely positioned to make the most of this cosmic stretch and grow by leaps and bounds!

--Everything that was predicted before tomorrow has come to pass pretty much like was said...and this is looking back after the fact.

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I'm finding it interesting that I know deep down that I'm up for a big change in my life and everything I'm reading is telling me the same thing. Heck, even the psychic I saw in May (which I don't know if I believe in all that--nor if I even believe in what all is in this post, for that matter..) was dead-on about some things that there's no way she could have known. I didn't even know...

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So here's the last part of all this. My one-card draw..
I asked for a card, giving a vague(ish) background, and this is what I received::

For you, Death-- the path you're walking isn't easy, but yes, it is the right one. The path of rebirth is never easy, but it is very, very worth it. Go foward, be renewed and reborn, and find your new self.

This, from miintikwa.livejournal.com

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So, I guess I have a lot ahead of me -- including finishing my book so I can start sending out queries next month. Gulp!!

Anyway, that's my life at the moment... We'll see what's in store come next year. I have a feeling all will be different!!!!

i've actually been doing this!!!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009 at 10:23 AM

I told myself that during the month of September, I was truly going to work on my WiP every day. I've said this before, but it's never happened. Well, not in a while, at least....
But I've been doing well and my motivation is off the charts so I'm excited to see what I have at the end of the month! This isn't just a monthly challenge, though. This is for all the time!! All year long! I feel confident enough to display this badge on my page! =)

I love smiley days! And I love this week, in particular. I'm lonely and have no company, but at the same time, I'm completely alone and can spend my time writing a ton over the next couple of days!!! We'll see what I come up with...

new book cover...again.

Monday, August 31, 2009 at 2:16 AM

this one kicks ass and takes names.
steven o'prey made it for me -- a fabulous guy!!

fits the book wayyy better now that it's dark, adult fantasy with a thriller twist.
i chunked the ya idea and made the characters more real.
i don't have to hold back anymore and it's wonderful!!!

*sadly, though, i'll have to cremate my original cover and place its remains among the others on "eden's ashes" =(

first blog award!!

Thursday, August 13, 2009 at 7:10 AM

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So, as I've been slacking, I wasn't even aware until yesterday that I received this award 2 weeks ago!! I'm horrible.
But, as it stands, I guess I'm supposed to list 7 of my favorite things and then guide you to 7 of my favorite blogs. Here goes!!

7 Favorite Things::

* Family Guy. -- Yep. Love it. Adore it. Watch it all the time. It's become my new Seinfeld. Anything that occurs in my life can somehow go back to a Family Guy episode. I don't believe a day goes by where I don't reference it -- sometimes I'm by myself in a public place and start cracking up out of the blue. It's great!!

* the smell of freshly cut grass -- one of the best things ever!
I even bought the perfume Grass from The Gap...still have a teeny, tiny bit left in the 10+ year old bottle. Can't bring myself to use it all -- I just pick it up and smell it sometimes. Even a hellish, humid, summer day can be made better by walking past a neighbor's house while they're mowing their lawn. Mmmmm...

* writing -- lame answer, I know, but I can't leave it out. It's just that good.

* my kid's laugh -- greatest sound in the world. Just can't get enough!!

* music -- which I can't get out of my head at any given time. At the moment, after typing 'just can't get enough,' that's in my head. Not so wonderful, but it'll go away =) Music can get you through anything. Break-ups, happy times, mellow times, down days, etc... It's amazing what it can do for your mood. Phenomenal stuff, that music.

* lazy days -- days where I can just lie around and watch movies or marathons of fave shows. Days where I don't have to get ready unless I have to (which is admittedly almost every day, but I hardly ever get a real lazy day. Usually I'm running around doing a zillion things feeling like I'm getting nothing accomplished.) I'm sick right now, so maybe today will be a great, lazy, movie day. We'll see...

* my dogs -- they're the best. They're rock stars!! Nothing about them to not adore. I'm not sure what I'd do without them. How did I live before they were around? My fun, rambunctious girl and my sweet, lazy boy -- they have the best, distinct personalities ever. So great!!

All right, that's 7 favorite things. Now for 7 Favorite Blogs::

* I'm in love with the dark and beautiful The Wednesday Chronicles. Two writers who share a blog about all the things that don't belong anywhere else. It's awesome!

* What a Load a Scrap is my mom's blog that she shares with a friend of hers. May not appeal to many who read this, as it's a quilting blog, but I love it. I've just moved away from her again and it's nice to keep up on what she's doing. Whether you like (or even know anything about) quilts is of no consequence. It's pretty and interesting, anyway.

* A site I love to go to for either the great guest blogs, advice or original writing posted is Musings and Mullings. A great site with a talented author who is always around for feedback on others' work and blogs. Just a good site all-around!!

* Although Marnie Elizabeth hasn't been around for a month or so, her blog, Wisdom to Watch out For never fails to deliver (when she posts ;)). Go check it out and see all the interesting stuff she's written about. Awesome stuff! ...I hope she's all right--I've been wondering about her...

* Penny Lane's blog is just full of all sorts of fun. She's a writer but doesn't really write about writing. Just her life and all the crazy stuff that happens in her life or things she loves or just whatever. It's a good one to look at if you're a little down -- it'll cheer you right up!! =)

* I know I participate on this blog, so it's sort of cheating, but I'm not the creator and I only post once a week. All the girls at if you give a girl a pen... are spectacular and have wonderful insights and info to share. And sometimes it's just pure fun. A really great site that is gaining more and more members. We're soon going to have one of my favorite editors guest blog, along with published authors. Heck, we've already had published (or soon-to-be published) authors on the site. It's Sarah Jensen's baby and she's gathered a great group of women to bring the blog to new heights. I'm honored to be a part of it!!

* I don't believe it's cheating to nominate my nominator, as her blog truly is fabulous!! Emily J. Griffin's a heart on a wire touches on all aspects of writing and is just good, clean fun! Lots of info and interesting things combined makes it completely worthy of this award twice now. Love it!!

So, I guess that's it. These things take so long -- lots of thought required and it's too early to continue. Ran out of steam at just the right time. Going back to sleep now =)
Thanks, Emily!! I'm so excited about my first award =D


Tuesday, August 11, 2009 at 12:09 PM
I'm spending a lot of time on there again. Hoping to rise in the ranks. Another writer on there, Melanie, explained her reasoning for wanting to reach the editor's desk (it had always seemed pointless to me) and now I might go for it.
My book is written in my head, but I only have 30k on paper. So I guess the plan now is to spend a bunch of time reading others' work and receiving feedback from them in hopes of earning a review from HarperCollins.
We'll see if it happens...
But if I can get confidence from that, then I'll jot down the rest of my book in a couple weeks time. Then I'll edit/revise.
Interesting how my plan keeps changing.....
As long as I reach my final goal of having it readyready for submission by the holidays, I'll be fine.

Yeah, this was a pointless post, but it makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something...it's been so dang long.


5 views away

Saturday, July 25, 2009 at 12:43 AM
from 1500 views between my two sites.
not too shabby considering I've only really spent a month on them so far.
I couldn't imagine being a 'real' writer and seeing all the people mob my site.
one day I will, though. it'll happen. my psychic told me so ;)

off to write. 1k before bed. at least...


in another life

Thursday, July 16, 2009 at 12:49 AM
this would be me::

i would be blonde and young and not have to give a rat's ass what people think of me.
to an extent, i'm many of those things (except i'm a dark brunette), but i'd love to be what i am and even more.
i'd have sick hair like this girl's, and i'd remember not to start with a stupid tattoo at age 18 that i'll hate in the years to come. i'm getting it fixed to fit in with the rest of them, but in another life, i wouldn't have to do that.

i would have known i was truly a writer at a much younger age. i'd be working on my first book at the age this girl is...not years later like i am now.
if only i were buddhist and i believed in reincarnation. but i'd probably come back as a butterfly or something else that only lives for like two weeks.

i'd go for the 10k/day goal and i'd hit my goal every day. heck, i'd have a novel finished in a few weeks. i would so love to do that right now, but i'm beyond swamped with moving and taking care of other things that i just can't do it. my self-imposed deadline i set when starting this book might not be made because of all the nonsense that's occurred over the past few months. as i said, in another life...
heck, now i have ashlee simpson in my head.

i know who i am and i'm proud of it, but i learned too late, as most people do. at age thirty, i wish i could be like this girl, whereas in ten/fifteen years, she will *most likely* be embarrassed by such pictures of herself. of course i don't know this to be true. maybe she's one of the lucky ones.
at least i'm not so old that i can't be more open and free. i've actually gotten better about it over the past five years or so, which i suppose is quite normal. even in the past few days, i've grown to realize that i don't care what people think. except my immediate family. my chosen family. the ones i live with. my love wouldn't exactly be happy with me being a streaked blonde with a lip ring (he dislikes the scar i have from my labret stud from 6-7 yrs ago), but i'm a bit more unconventional than i had once believed. and i adore it.

so yes, this would be me. heck, it could be me if i bleached my hair and then dyed it. but i don't think i'd fare well as a blonde. i don't have the coloring for it.
it's 1 am and i'm rambling. i cannot sleep for the life of me, so i'm blogging instead. now i'm going to quit and work on that 10k/day goal. i'm not aiming quite that high, but we'll see where i end up. i know i can do 1200/hr, so maybe i can write a chapter before i crash.

nite, all
xxx -e*


Wednesday, July 15, 2009 at 2:40 PM
I've not the chance to really write any of my stories or my novel as of late, since I'm preparing the house for the U-Haul that will arrive in a few weeks...
So I've been spending most of my time reading and watching movies. Along with taking care of a sick child. That's never fun..

Anyway, as I've been taking things off the walls and putting books in boxes, I'm dreaming of how I will set up our new place. After my post the other day on my writing spaces, I can't stop thinking of how I will create my new space.
On top of that, I've been going crazy making icons and drawing tattoos and other such nonsense... But it's fun. It's distracting. It's....procrastination. And it's me.


Everything in my life is creative. I cannot do anything the 'normal' way (whatever that may mean..). I dream until the last possible second and then I do what I must, whether it be packing, or dishes, or laundry, or anything else that's just not as much fun as what I can do within the never-ending limits of my mind...

I am thankful that my next task today is to write a blog post for giveagirlapen.com. I will be far too busy tomorrow, and it needs to post rather early Friday morning. So I shall write it today and schedule the posting. I have so much fun writing with the girls, so it's not exactly a chore. The past two weeks, I gave advice, but now I'm back to regular posts. Having an idea (sort of) in mind already, I'm excited to see what I come up with.

I hope that all of you use your creativity every day as well, and do not succumb to the boring confines of 'regular' everyday life...

tragic beauty

Tuesday, July 14, 2009 at 12:13 PM
-need I say more?-

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marilyn window
this one was her favourite, and I have to agree.
she just woke up and looks better than girls today.
girls who take precious time attempting to achieve this same look..
true beauty.

marilyn text
this would have been cool if he'd written facts about her throughout the whole picture and not just the beginning... but it's still pretty awesome.

marilyn loved words and she had plenty to say...



she also adored reading.

marilyn reading
marilyn reading while standing
marilyn reading on sofa

marilyn reading outside larger

beauty && brains. and did i say beauty? so much beauty...

marilyn sheets

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and strength ;)

marilyn weights

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such energy and light and fun and sparkles.
such awe, amazement, admiring fans.
such heartache and pain.


if only more people had really, truly cared.
greed is an ugly, ugly thing.

who knows..she could have been one of our mothers or grandmothers....

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---listening to 'candle in the wind'---
lonely tears.

my writing spaces

Sunday, July 12, 2009 at 9:57 PM
So I have an actual writing desk where I prop a pillow behind my back, pull out a drawer and put another pillow on that and then I lean back and put my legs up on the drawer. A blanket goes on my lap and my keyboard on that.
Once I get settled, I'm 1) comfortable, and 2) at the perfect angle to see my insanely outdated monitor (the computer's great, but I don't feel like shelling out for a monitor when mine works perfectly fine). It was a great setup and I even have a nice view behind me.
Some of my favourite books! Plus a TV for background noise. I love putting in old '80's movies and just typing away. I've seen the films so many dang times that I don't pay any attention. But it is nice to have the noise.
Well, I connected the internet to this desktop and it is just all sorts of slow now. Seriously Ridiculous. Thankfully, I received an HP Mini for my birthday. It's just too much fun. I do still like using this computer, and I print and edit on it, but I love having everything so compact.
Have you ever used a netbook?
If not, you should! Fabulous.
Needless to say, I spend most of my time on my mini and, of course, the internet is insanely faster on the tiny, new computer that has next to nothing on the hard drive as I use all external devices for storage.
So, now I spend most of my time in the living room. I can get as comfy as can be with my loveseat and ottomans. I have a sofa table (not in the picture) that's full of books and papers. As is the end table. Heck, the end table got so cluttered that I had to bring a tray table over next to it. Yep. Just shoved the sofa on down a little bit and made room for more writing junk. ;)
After the move--once I'm all settled--I'll post my new space...
I'm rather interested to see what I'll come up with.

book sale!!

Saturday, July 11, 2009 at 11:31 PM
yay! My mom had a 25% off coupon at Borders.
25% off your entire purchase!
So needless to say, we went shopping.
These are the results. Not phenomenal but it's still beautiful :D

Nothin' better than a nice, new stack of books.
Too bad I need to write and not read...
One of them is research, though. So maybe I can sneak it in ;)

two sentences.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009 at 4:05 PM
didn't expect a story about faeries to have a part like this.
just happened yesterday. it rather intrigued me and i'm excited to write on.

It was like liquid chocolate with raspberry mixed in.
She licked it up greedily and started kissing Sloane again.

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i try.

Monday, July 6, 2009 at 2:21 PM
i'm not sure why i started this particular blog.
i truly love it---it's quite different than my other one.
it doesn't receive as many views, but so fracking what...

it's hard to come up with stuff to say on two separate blogs, plus comment on followers of both and find other random blog posts i like. oh, and it's always nice to find time to work on a WiP every day. and of course, spend time with my family and make sure my house isn't a disaster by the time my guy gets home from work.

but somehow i do it. (probably because my brain never shuts up!) but not always well, especially over this past weekend. so i just wanted to come give this blog a little love and report that i think i'm going to hit my goal of 2,500 words today! it took just under an hour to get halfway there.the problem now is that i took a break because i was proud for writing so much and an hour later, i haven't gone back to my doc.
guess i'll finish this up and go there...

2,500 may not be a lot, but i'm not on a publisher's deadline or anything... if i was getting paid for this, i wouldn't be spending my time watching 'judge alex' and wandering around the house & the internet.
heck, last week i was only writing 250wrds/day. it sucked.
so i'm grateful that my kid is with my mom right now. she's having fun playing outside and spending time with nana, and i'm actually able to write. a rather decent amount, i believe...
so i'm off to do that.

but i'll leave ya with a quote i just came across. i rather like it. quite true.

completely off topic.

Thursday, July 2, 2009 at 5:30 PM
So, my child likes to color. What 4yr old doesn't? Well this one likes to color on walls. As I'm sure other 4yr olds do.
Hence, this blog post.

Last night, my boyfriend/sorta-husband/mate/whateveryouwannacallhim came in while said child was cleaning the brightly colored wall and in his hand was a bottle of something from the garage. I could smell it from fifteen feet away. Hesitantly, I *allowed* him to test it out on the wall. Oh. My. God! It worked like a frackin' miracle.
Now, the baking soda and ammonia mix I'd made worked really well also, but it doesn't even compare to this magical mechanic's elixir.

Liquid Wrench's Silicone Spray.

If you ever need to get anything off of your walls, be it crayon, dirt, food, whatever (I know because I proceeded to clean elsewhere with it), this is the stuff you should use. Without a doubt. Phenomenal. Did I already say masterful? Well, I'm saying it again. Try it. You won't believe it.

Maybe I'm coming across this discovery late, but for some reason I doubt most mom's bring in the silicone spray their mechanic-ish man uses in the garage on engine parts and such. I know I like to keep what belongs in the garage out there.

Anyway, no reason to make this post super long, but I do want to get across to you how superb this product is.

The only caveat---open every single window and door in your entire house. This stuff stinks to high heaven and will get you high, I'm sure. Or, if that's your thing, well then, keep the doors shut. Depends on how many brain cells you need to function in your daily life. I'd like to keep the ones that I have....

Buy some of this stuff. And use it. Seriously.
If a rockstar could morph into liquid form, this is what s/he would be.

first five sentences.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009 at 2:23 PM
At giveagirlapen.com, I recently posted about the importance of the first five pages of one's book. It turned into a few more posts about the first five sentences. Because, let's face it, if a reader (agent, namely) cannot get past the opening, there's not much chance s/he will read any further.

After all of these posts and critical feedback from other writers, I have come up with two sets of my first five sentences.
One set is the beginning of my prologue.
The other is the beginning of Chapter One, which occurs twenty years later...and the book continues from that point.

Here they are::
- I added a few more sentences to include the full two beginning paragraphs of each.
It's my blog. I'm allowed ;)

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Prologue First Five(ish)::

Ankou enjoyed delaying pleasure--stretching out the game until he couldn’t stand it any longer. Killing a faery was a rare occasion and so when the opportunity presented itself, he made sure to savor it.

The blonde lovely had given birth to a darling girl. Her unexpected pain satisfied Ankou immensely. He had thought the mother would be stronger--it was odd to encounter any weak fae, but it was to Ankou’s benefit she fell in the minority that morning. Such suffering gratified him. Next to consuming an entire soul, fear and pain came second best. He was incensed, though, that she recovered so quickly.

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Chapter One First Five(ish)::

Sitting straight up in bed, Alexis looked all around her. Patting the sheets to feel they were real, she pulled them close to herself and attempted to gather her bearings.

A second ago, she was deep in the forest with beautiful creatures. She’d smelled fresh air and bathed in the sun’s rays that filtered through the trees. Some of the beings were winged and flew above her head as she watched in awe. Others were like penguins in that they couldn’t fly, but that didn’t take away from their magic. Alexis found them all to be wonderful. Not a single one was as boring and simple as the pale, yellow walls and dark, matching furniture that Mrs. Hodge had chosen for her daughter’s bedroom.

* * * * * * * * * * * * *

So there you have it :D

Not sure if I've posted my blurb on this blog or not, but even if I have, here it is again. This is the super condensed version::

**Intense visions transport twenty-year-old Alexis to the unseen world of faeries. She soon discovers she was born into this world, and it’s where she truly belongs--it is Avalon.
Two friends guide her home after a nightmare reveals that one of her kind is attacking mortals. History has never seen such evil, and Alexis alone must stop it.
The unexpected help of a Depraved faery makes this quest easier. But, when Alexis becomes attached to him and starts seeing the world differently, will she have the strength to choose the right path? Or, will she succumb to her innermost demons at the expense of innocence?

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well shucks, ya'll...

Friday, June 26, 2009 at 3:29 PM
i just won me a contest!!
yep.. sure did =)

gotta love it.

* * *

i've decided i rather like having two blogs. i don't have to be quite so serious on this one. the other one's all about my platform---promotion, publishing, editing, writing, blahblahblah.

i do enjoy both, though.
and, of course, my group one.

i'm off to comment and write. i'm done posting for the day as this is lucky #6..
ew---i hate that number..



at 2:04 PM
i've posted three blogs on wordpress today and one on giveagirlapen.com, but i haven't touched this site. so i suppose i'll pick an excerpt and post it.

along with my new book cover that bradley wind designed for me.

Alexis pretended nothing was wrong; like she had glanced behind her simply to see who was around. Turning back toward the pond, she took an invigorating breath, and pulled her knees to her chest. If she looked down and focused on her feet, maybe he wouldn’t sense her fear. At least, that’s what she hoped. She examined the smudge her flip-flops had made when she slipped them on with wet polish on her toes. Then, she ran her index finger over the smooth skin where her simple star tattoo was—near the little toe on her right foot.

Silently, Alexis was willing this guy to go away, but instead, she spoke.

“So where is everyone? Are we alone out here?”

“Yep. We’re alone. They all went in to watch home movies from the football games. Stuff’s pretty funny, actually.”

“Huh, well I was just about to get up and go watch a movie with some people. Are you gonna join us, or....” She really didn’t feel like inviting him, so she trailed off. He would get the hint.

“Nah, I’m just gonna stay out here for a bit and enjoy the view. Just like you’ve been doing.” Something in his tone implied he knew darned well that wasn’t all she’d been doing. She didn’t care, though. That was her cue to get away and figure it all out.

eden tyler on missbimbo.com

Wednesday, June 24, 2009 at 12:41 PM
So, I just did a Google search of myself and my book to see what popped up as part of my platform/brand research for my blog post on Friday. (I post one day a week on giveagirlapen.com.)

Interestingly, I came upon this sentence::
"Eden Tyler's family knew she'd be accepted in Hogwarts, the entire family had graduated from the school."
Colour me intrigued, as I wasn't aware that I was attending Hogwarts. I might have the chance to meet Harry. Too bad Cedric's dead---I'm still so hoping to get RP's phone number ;) lol

Apparently this site, missbimbo.com, has a 'Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry Contest'
Some sort of role-playing thing.

Along with it being interesting to come across, I want to make it clear that the Eden Tyler on that site is not me.
Nor am I the male director at edentyler.com who lives in NYC.
(I wish I was, only for the fact that he got to use the url and I had to add 'writer' to mine. But that's ok because it's sort of rhyme-y and hey, it tells what I am...)

OK, I'm off to write.
I'm finishing this chapter and then posting it on edentylerwriter.com


shortshort excerpt from my book.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009 at 11:50 AM
i posted a new page on my other blog, but i thought i'd make it more readily available. i used it for a writing prompt exercise.
it's supposed to be how your character felt the first time someone held his/her hand.

here it is::


“You really have that much confidence in me?” Alexis asked, as she reached her hand across the small diner table to touch Sloane. She didn’t even care what the answer was. Still fascinated that he was the first fae she’d encountered with skin exactly like her own, all she wanted to do was stare at him forever.

He gave her an answer, anyway. “You should know I do. You should know everything I’m thinking, Kellyn.”

Alexis couldn’t bring herself to look away from their hands. She was afraid of the look she might—or worse, might not—see in his crisp, blue eyes.

Sloane slowly turned his palm up and laced his fingers through Alexis’ from underneath. The electricity they both felt was undeniable. Alexis had waited years to feel this with Blake, and now she knew why it had never happened.

“I think I do. Yeah.” With a deep breath, she drew on her strength and looked at Sloane‘s eyes, and found herself lost in them.

By Eden on 06.12.09 5:31 pm | (at giveagirlapen)

please pay attention. pretty please =)

at 9:40 AM
so i get a lot of views/comments on my other blog, but for some dang reason, the one post i spent the most time on last week (just because of what i had to do---not that i worked super hard on it or anything..) is about the only one no one commented on.

so, i'm gonna post it here and see if i get a different response.
if not, i might cry.
j/k. i don't cry



so, i found this on penny lane's blog.
i wasn't tagged to do it, but since i'm doing awesome with my writing at the moment, i don't want to jinx it by writing any of avalon or anything else on here..

these are the instructions::
"with as much creativity as you can muster, show your heart in:
a picture, a poem, a song (or piece of music), a phrase (or quote), an item of clothing, a place, and (just for fun) a Disney princess."

let's see what i can come up with...



this picture is from along came polly.
i instantly thought of her when i saw penny's pic from almost famous.
polly can never find her keys. i tried to find a picture from that scene where she finds them in the freezer with the key-finder thingy, but to no avail.
anyway, she's lived in her half-unpacked apartment for months now and is just as scatter-brained as can be.
but she's also sweet and loveable and lives her life with passion.
she's brutally honest and doesn't makes excuses for anything.
every time i watch this movie, i swear i'm watching myself -- except for the whole commitment thing. i have no problem whatsoever with commitment. i adore being in a serious relationship. i've hardly ever been single my entire life.
but yeah, this picture---this character---is a perfect depiction of me.
style and all...



There is a pretty girl
on the
of the magazine
all I can see
are my dirty
turning the page

i was going to choose a different poem, but it was entirely too personal to put online.
while looking through the same book of poetry, i came across this one, which has always resonated with me. everything jewel (kilcher) writes seems to touch me. i've loved her dearly for years and years.
this poem in particular just shows how i (and probably every other female in existence) feels. no matter how good i am at something, or how 'pretty' i think i might be a certain day, i still don't feel 'up to par.'
there are many different reasons for this. some external, but mostly internal...something i definitely need to work on!!


so, i just chose a short portion of a song.
it's actually rather lame as far as the writing goes, but it's sooo me it's ridiculous.
here it is:
"...i'm always, always, always, always late.
and my hair's a mess, even when it's straight"

see, told ya. lame. (it's ashlee simpson.) but it's beyond true.
i swear i'll be late to my own funeral.
eden time is whatever time it is plus ten to fifteen minutes, minimum..
and yeah---i have curly hair, but tend to straighten it.
doesn't matter cause i usually end up pulling it back; it just always gets ridiculously annoying.
my guy likes it curly, so it's even more fun pulled back like that :P
i actually have rather nice hair --- thick and full, so it's never 'technically' messy, but it always feels a mess to me. i can't stand it.
but, at the same time, it's me. so i love it. yeah, idk.... ;)


"The gift of fantasy has meant more to me than my talent for absorbing positive knowledge.
-- Albert Einstein

i don't believe einstein needs any explanation....

*--*--*i have to run to target to buy the newest season of family guy and then to b&n to pick up a new copy of the princess bride. for some reason, i've never read the book. i'm going to read it for the once upon a time III reading challenge. then i'm heading to a friend's house to visit YAY!
so, i'll be back later and i'll finish the last three then =)*--*--*

k, i'm back !!

an item of clothing::

2009-06-16 22.32.08.

my man's dc hoodie.
most comfortable fracking thing in the entire world.
we both wear it constantly.
i love that it smells like him & he loves that it smells like me.
it's the best!!!
it makes me happy and it totally defines both my clothing style and my relationship. and the fact that comfort is more important to me than most other things.
if i'm comfortable, i'm content with who i am and what i'm doing at the moment. that's why i'm wearing it right now. i'm writing and wearing this---what could be better?!?!?? =)

***here's another fave item that i just had to add..***

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love 'em! beyond comfortable.
and brown&&pink is one of the best color combinations in existence.
i'm rather big into color...

a place::

Prince Edward Island

i would be ridiculously happy if i could live in green gables with anne and matthew---except he'd still be alive.
the place is gorgeous!!
it'd be extremely conducive to writing and other such things i enjoy...
yeah...that'd be nice.....
i adore being alone, yet having the choice of enjoying the company of those i love whenever i want. and in this day and age, i could be isolated there with fabulous people, but still interact with others through the internet&&phone.
what could be more perfect? ...at least for me.

a Disney princess::

i'm sorry, but i can't pick a princess.
i can pick a Disney character who is a girl, though.
i'm trying, but i can't find myself identifying with any of the princesses...
so, i have to choose:


i'm not totally in love with Disney's version of tink, although i do love her movie. it's quite fabulous!!!
i adore brian froud's version of tink.
i'm pretty sure i have a picture...


yes, this is the tinkerbell i would love to be.
if i could be anything in the world, it would be a faery.
i'm crazy obsessed with the entire fae realm and everything to do with faeries. loveitloveitloveit!!

---well, i suppose that's the end.
the original post was titled 'my heart' per the directions...

you better have read it.
i know where you live!! ;)
(joke. i've no clue where ya'll live)

xx -e*

how do you write??

Monday, June 22, 2009 at 12:10 PM
so i figure if i'm gonna do this blog, i should give it as much time and energy as my other two...
to get myself started, i stole a draft from giveagirlapen.com. (one i'd written, obviously..)

let's see what happens!

A few months ago, as we looked through her many shelves of literature, my aunt asked me if I’d ever thought of writing a book. Without hesitation, I answered, “No,” and that conversation ended there. For the time being….
I wrote a lot in college, short stories and essays, but never felt I had enough ‘creativity’ to bring an entire book to life, let alone have a decent idea in the first place. Obviously, I was way off mark.

Weeks later, a strange idea for a book popped into my head--completely out of the blue. I mused over it for a couple days. Realizing the story did nothing but grow as the time passed, I grabbed a blank journal and began scribbling away.

Starting with the rather boring title, Forgotten Fae, the book slowly grew into what is now The Abandoned Edge of Avalon. It’s been interesting to find that the details and scenes dictate themselves. The experience isn’t anything like I’d expected.

I’m not quite sure, but I suppose I thought I’d have to work on coming up with ideas. Not even close to the reality of writing—at least for me. I don’t use outlines. I simply sit at the keyboard and the words flow out of me. It’s as if I’m just the vessel for new life to come into being. And now, the characters breathe and move on their own.

Sometimes, I wonder why it took me so long to begin writing in the first place…. It’s difficult even to finish this first book, as I have ideas for at least three more in the works at the moment. Writing is the greatest gift I’ve ever received, and I’m thrilled to possess it. I still have a lot to learn, but it’s all sinking in quickly and I feel I’m getting better by the day. Quite a few people have helped me fine-tune my sentence structure early on (i.e. passiveness, head-hopping, tense changes), and now I’m able to catch most of these problems as I write.

Being a ‘mind’s eye’ writer, and not planning much of the story in advance (other than characters and a basic beginning and end), I’m curious to see how others write. Some have elaborate methods that, to me, would take the fun out of the process. But, hey, maybe they’re better at their craft than I am. Perhaps they enjoy the fruits of their labor even more because they put so much work into their stories. Who knows? I’d like to….

So, how do ya’ll write? Do you see the scene in your head, as I do, and just type what plays out? Do you outline chapters? Do you set deadlines for yourself? Do you try for a particular word count per day? I’m interested to learn other writers‘ routines. Another factor is research. I did a decent amount, as I had to for this particular book--I wanted the most ‘realistic’ fantasy possible, How do you guys prepare your setting and backstory? And even names? Do your characters names have particular meanings? Mine do. I feel it adds even more depth to that person.

I just wanted to share my personal style of writing and how it completely took me by surprise. I’d love to hear how many are like me. Or, of even more interest--who approaches this art in a completely different fashion. Looking forward to your feedback!

first blog here.

at 1:16 AM
I just set this page up and I have some work to do on my Wordpress blog, but I'll be back later today (as it's already past 1am -- dang!) to write a real post.

If you feel like checking out what I'm all about before I get the chance to tell ya'll, click here.

Talk to you soon!! =)